The other evening, a good friend and I were discussing our different approaches toward meditation and what our experiences have been. At one point I mentioned that I tend to approach my meditations in an attempt to become one with Brahman, or more accurately to simply remember that I am Brahman. My “goal” has been to “escape” samsara. This line of conversation eventually led to the epiphany that perhaps God doesn’t want to be alone, and maybe I’ve been looking at it all wrong.
God/Brahman is omnipresent, omniscient, infinite, and eternal. Everything else is temporary and illusory even though everything else is ultimately, in it’s essence, still Brahman. My approach toward meditation has been to realize my Brahman essence and find liberation. I’ve always assumed that I’d then eventually die from this body and return to Brahman as one. If I did that, if we all did that, than would God be alone again? Would the all pervading ocean of possibility become entirely silent, and if this happened wouldn’t that be lonely?
Ha! God feeling lonely. At first it seemed absurd because God is the ultimate everything. How could the most ultimate and powerful being feel lonely? Yes, powerful is an adjective for God but not lonely. That’s such a feeling I have guilt and judgement around. It’s fine for God to feel power or love, but lonely… That’s just too human. Too weak. Or is it?
In my mind, I was suddenly picturing Brahman alone in the stillness, in the purusa, and when I saw God like this little lonely kid wishing for some company, some family and friends, I understood why I’m here has nothing to do with escaping reincarnation or life. This is all on purpose. Everything that is here and is happening is part of Brahman playing out his heart’s need for love. Perhaps the freedom of enlightenment is to be alive and see that you’re keeping God from being lonely. Our lives give love a reason to exist. What could be more meaningful and freeing than this!?
AUM shanti shanti shanti