This week I had an interesting epiphany that I think might change my life. When I began meditating and practicing yoga, my body was already beginning to break down at 24 years old, and I needed something bigger than myself to belong to. I approached my practice as if I was on a decided mission to be better. It was always with striving to fix something, and I think I believed, in the beginning, that I would reach a steady state of magical peace or something.
Better, I realized is what I have been seeking all these years, and this is exactly what I realized during my epiphany this week. There is no better. That’s not to say that I couldn’t be more successful, rich, adventurous, etc… but it is to say that there is nothing that needs to be fixed. My life, right at this very moment, is exactly right. It doesn’t mean I am going to throw in the towel and quit working to improve myself, it just means that I am going to let myself be happy with who I am along the way.
Enlightenment, at least as far as I can understand it right now, doesn’t mean God is going to come down from Heaven and grant me eternal oneness that leaves me feeling blissfully connected and entirely at peace (or maybe it does)… right now, enlightenment is being happy with the life I have… right now. There is nothing that I need to fix because I am good. Enlightenment is being present in the journey. It’s not a constant state; it is as alive as you are.
You are perfect just as you are, and you will keep becoming more perfect if you let yourself. Be alive now.